Tuesday, March 31, 2009

To You This May Be Just A Billboard......

......To Me, This Is A Tender Mercy!!!

As we approached Kate's "Angel Day" I had no expectations of how I wanted the day to turn out. For Kate's second birthday back in July, I had everything planned out exactly how I wanted it to be: The birthday cake, the balloons, the grave site decorations. Well, the wind blew, it rained, the balloons blew away and I was devastated. This was supposed to be such a beautiful day that we could enjoy being at the cemetery finding comfort in doing what little (physically) we could do to celebrate this very special day. Looking back, I knew that I didn't want to set myself up for disappointment on this day of remembrance. I wanted it to be a happy day, where I could reflect on the many happy times we had with Kate and the wonderful memories that were made. So in anticipation of Kate's first "Angel Day" we decided to do an early morning temple session and then spend the afternoon visiting Primary Children's. This was Kate's second home and she was loved by so many who cared for her. She had many, many friends there that Bryan and I really miss. Being back at the hospital was bitter sweet. Although we experienced so much heartache during the times Kate was in the hospital, walking through the halls again we felt such a peace......a peace knowing that our baby girl is no longer in pain.....a peace that she fulfilled her mission here on Earth.......a peace knowing that we will see our Sweet Kate again.

As we were driving up to Salt Lake from Lehi that day, we came across this billboard that really made me smile. A true tender mercy.

20 comments:

The Lapuaho's said...

I love it! You are such a strong girl Marcae...I hope you realize how many people look upto you!!

Shelby said...

thank you for sharing this. You and Bryan are so amazing to me. What a way to spend her day - and your day........... you have really inspired me, again and again. thank you Shelby

Lacey said...

I just got cold chills. Heavenly Father really does loves us. There are tender mercies all around us, but many of us forget to look at it that way. You make me want to be a better person. I'm so grateful to have you in my life!

Jen said...

How sweet and what a perfect day for you to see the billboard. :)

Shane & Laina said...

Doesn't get any better than that...to feel the peace and love that is available to us if we seek it! You are amazing!

Kate said...

im so glad i got to see u on that special day. and if i could eat another one of your sugar cookies i'd give anything. if you give away recipes i would love it! you guys are so great and it was fun to see mia!

Lisa said...

That is just plain awesome! How fitting for your special day.

The Johnson's said...

It sounds like Kate's "Angel Day" was a very special day! I'm so glad you shared this tender mercy!! It's such a wonderful blessing when we receive these gifts from up above! I bet Kate was smiling down at you when you saw the billboard!

Treo Sanders said...

Love love love it. Broght tears to my eyes. I love you and hope you are doing ok. you are so amazing and strong. maybe thats why your my bestest friend ever. Your the greatest.

Tricia said...

You truly are a wonder Marcae. I am inspired often by

Kate and the way you have dealt with your loss.

Charles, Kellie, Gabe and Khale said...

That is beautiful, just like Kate.

ryanfam said...

Absolute cold chills. That is probably one of the very coolest things I have ever seen. Thank you everyday Marcae for your posts and for your strength.

The Dumas Family said...

The world does need more sweet Kates. I'm so glad you saw that on your way up. Thanks for always sharing your thoughts. I am so grateful for you and Bryan and your sweet girls. I sure love you!

The Funderburks said...

How touching.

Marcae, you should add your blog to the SUU alumni blog http://suualumni.blogspot.com/ and encourage other alumni who are blogging to do the same!

Fritzsche's said...

That is really special. We need more billboards that give us peace and love and joy in our hearts than all the crap we usually come across. We do need more Kates! She was a sweet girl.

summer said...

I think about you often. I am glad Kate's angel day brought you peace and some little miracles which showed you how much the Lord loves you. You are an amazing example to us heart moms!

Summer and Tyson said...

That is so touching! It brought tears to my eyes because of knowing how much warmth and comfort that must have brought you! I love you!

The Hawaiian Howells said...

i think that is so cool that on that day you guys saw this. I truely believe what a little gift from the lord. we love you guys so much I am only sad we did not get to see you guys. love meg and the howells

Nicole said...

Okay, so I don't know how I have missed all these posts! First of all Mia in that little senorita outfit is so cute. In the first picture I didn't even realize it was her. I was trying to decide if it was a doll! Seeing Gina in your girls weekend pictures remind me of a time that her and I and a few other girls camped at Maple Grove and posed for pictures all over the camp ground. And last of all, if you ever want to come to Vegas and not pay for a hotel-you're always welcome!

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