Thursday, March 25, 2010

Kites and KupKakes for Kate

2 years!!! Gosh, is it possible that it has been 2 years since we said goodbye to our sweet baby girl? The grieving process is an every day occurrence. There is not one day that goes by that I don't think about Kate. I miss her little button nose, her beautiful brown head of hair. I miss the oxygen cannula that became her signature. I miss sitting on the couch for hours holding and loving on her. Most of all......I just plain miss her. Life can be hard and unfair. But, one thing I have learned these past two years is that happiness is a choice. Everyone has hard challenges and trials in their lives and the true test is learning how to embrace what you have been given, learn from it and hopefully come out a better person. I feel like life is my teacher and I am the student. Since we were not able to go and visit Kate's grave site on her anniversary this year, some people have asked if it has been difficult. For some reason I've never felt comfort visiting her grave site. But, I do love going and decorating and making sure it is well kept, so that was hard not being able to do. What I have found that makes these special days memorable is doing something fun......celebrating Kate's life. As Mia gets older, I want these days to be something exciting and something to look forward to, kind of like a holiday. I don't want her growing up thinking that it is a sad day. So this year we spent the day at the beach flying kites, talking about Kate and then indulging in pretty pink cupcakes. Even best friendTreo and her family were here staying with us for a few days. I would be lying if I said that there weren't breakdowns leading up to this day and the days following, but all-in-all it was a beautiful day. I'm so grateful for the calls, texts, messages, cards, flowers and many thoughts from our friends and family. Thank you!

We had so much fun writing and playing in the sand.
Treo, Miss Jaylee Joy and Nolan
Nolan is such a pro kite flyer. He especially specializes in pretty pink Barbie kites.
Treo's not too shabby herself!
Family Sanders
Family Rosenvall
Mini Kite Flyer Mia
My BFF Treo. Twenty {20} years and counting!
From the look on Jaylee's know exactly what she's thinking. "Mmmmmm!"
Mia wasted no time at all!
We're so glad we had someone to spend this special day with. Thanks Sander's. We can't wait for you to come back!


Gina said...

Marcae, I apologize, I have been thinking so much about Kenyon turning two that I forgot you had a two year date too for Kate and soon for Mia. I hope you know that I miss you so bad and I need to be better at calling you but I don't want to bug you too much but maybe I'll just not care and bug you anyway. MISS YOU KATE!

Treo Sanders said...

LOVE THIS POST. I'm so glad we were there for you even though it was a rough few days for you. I love you and had such a good time spending time w you and Mia. Can't wait to see you next month.
We miss you Kater Bugs:)

ryanfam said...

What a great way to celebrate. I love the kites and best of all the beach! I love those cupcakes!!!! way cool treo and fam were there

ps tell roper lumber thanks for the vacuum they donated to the josie greathouse 5k fun run. I won that baby and she sure is nice;)

Melissa said...

So glad you have so much support and people who love you and Kate. It sure helps!!

Marie Holmes said...

I love how you are keeping Kate's memory alive. I know her spirit is with you everyday! Two beautiful little daughters you have been blessed with!!
Hope all is well!

katie said...

Oh Marc, I love you. What a beautiful idea to honor Kate and make it a happy day, with a few breakdowns in-between. Kate would definitely want you guys to do something fun as you think of her.
She is with you always.

Valerie said...

What a sweet post and I need to remember more often that happiness is a choice. Love the picture of you guys on the beach too!

Lacey said...

You always inspire me to better a better person with your words. We miss Kater Bugs too.

Brynnly and Alan said...

You are so amazingly strong! I love your attitude. You are so right! Happiness is a choice and you are amazing for being so positive! I read an article in the Ensign about choosing to be happy through trials. Not just enduring them but enjoying life through them. Something that is hard to learn to do but it's the only way to come out better and stronger! I love that you celebrate this day! Looks like you guys had a good time. I'm so glad Treo got to be there with you. I bet that was comforting and I bet she loved being there for you.

Jen said...

What a great way to celebrate Kate! Looks like you had a great time!! :)

Nicole said...

I bet that earthquake was so scary. I remember one in Scipio when I was little. I am sure it didn't compare to yours, but it was still scary.
Marcae this post about Kate was so special. I love what you do in her memory. I remember crying in the delivery room when I had Cole, thinking about what you were going through. I am amazed at who you have become. I know you didn't used to be this good;) Glad Treo was there with you.

Michelle said...

You are just so amazing. i hope that i can follow your example and celebrate these days rather than turning them into sad days. You are a true inspiration to many babyloss moms out there.